Period from the start of 2015 until the May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat was a time of massive transition for me though i couldn't pin point a finger at what it was. My thoughts and emotions were all over the place during this period. i constantly tried to repeat to myself 'i am not the mind, i am not the body, i am not my emotions', something i had learnt from the Vedic scriptures that i read from 2009 until 2011 but relief was low. It was almost like i just had to go through whatever this phase was. i missed reading Vedic spiritual texts that had given me so much insight about the working of the mind and a lot of perspective but i could just not focus on them.
In March 2015, Sree Maa Shri Ji started a what's app group chat called 'Sanatana Dharm'. i have taken the liberty to share this chat group below:
Sree Maa introduced Sanskrit concepts from Sanatana Dharm in simple English that i would have never followed on my own. i wasn't even aware about the kind of muktas that were there and that even mukti could be of different levels. Had it not been for Sree Maa, i would have only pursued stithi pragnya and turiya avastha but Sree Maa became instrumental in introducing me to higher spiritual goals which i could choose to pursue__/\o_
But the current state of my antahkaran was only allowing me to look up to the May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat.
From being a seeker, seeking to find who am i, until the self surrendered and asked 'is there anyone out there who can tell me who i am?' Finding my Akshar Paratpar Mitra, Sree Maa Shri Ji who heard the yearning and led me from self to Self, showed me my ultimate goal of SELF. My journey from self to Self to SELF which got stalled due to a few covert and malignant narcissists who sat with me slyly like they were in Kosmic Fusion for the same spiritual goal as me...but alas!
February 15, 2018
Santana Dharma
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