The next two days, some participants left and a few more came to attend the Transcendence part of the Retreat.
The entire 2 days was filled with, what can you expect? More dynamic discourses, exercises, initiations and blessings. Sree Maa's discourses always hovered around Absolute Truth that really rattled the beliefs mind had created and yet Sree Maa maintained lightness with a bright sense of humor. Sree Maa always encouraged us to keep an open mind and do mañan and chintan to arrive at our own conclusions.
For the first time, i experienced doing Pradakshinas around Sree Maa Shri Ji's photo with everyone as an exercise. It was an eye-opening experience. i was the first one to start the pradakshinas as no-one was taking the first step. As i started, everyone started to join when they were ready. i wanted to run around the photo but was forced to slow down at everyone's speed. Can't deny i felt annoyed that no-one wanted to start and once i started, everyone followed and were coming in my way and slowing me down 😇 Kindly excuse my selfish thoughts but i am speaking honestly🙏
i even wanted to get out of the circle and just run but couldn't as there was no space and i was literally pushed into being in synchronicity with everyone and not do what i wanted. It was this practical exercise that truly showed me that we all had to move in synchronicity, in One rhythm as the non-doer, for the mission and vision of Sree Maa Shri Ji, Kosmic Fusion to reach its epitome. What a beautiful experience where without any lecture i came to this self-realization where the only central focus was Sree Maa Shri Ji and their vision and mission for which all FiTs had asked to volunteer and must move in Oneness towards that One goal_/\_
i had disrupted the personal communal session of fusing in Dec 2014 where we went the mental way of verbalizing each one's individual script and then tuning in with QVSWPP to neutralize it together in oneness but Pradakshina exercise done in complete silence was absolutely beautiful_/\_ Sree Maa Shri Ji, what a brilliant way to fuse everyone together and to remind everyone of that One goal for which we had been graciously accepted to volunteer__/\o_
Sree Maa Shri Ji gave a massive blessing of activating the Anandmaya Kosha (bliss body). It is one of the subtle layers that gets activated for yogis, seers after millions of years of spiritual practice. Sree Maa Shri Ji gifted it to us just like that. i loved doing the shashtang dandavats in Sree Maa Shri Ji's lotus feet again during these two days and really wondered why i had deprived myself of it in all these years that i had known Sree Maa Shri Ji when i hail from Bharat and touching feet of elders and gurus is a common norm.
From being a seeker, seeking to find who am i, until the self surrendered and asked 'is there anyone out there who can tell me who i am?' Finding my Akshar Paratpar Mitra, Sree Maa Shri Ji who heard the yearning and led me from self to Self, showed me my ultimate goal of SELF. My journey from self to Self to SELF which got stalled due to a few covert and malignant narcissists who sat with me slyly like they were in Kosmic Fusion for the same spiritual goal as me...but alas!
February 25, 2018
May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat Part 2 - Transcendence
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