Prayer and homage to my Sadguru, SreeMaaShriJi, my Supreme lifeline

Jai Shree Swaminarayan🙏

Who am i? Why am i here? Don't we all wonder?
We seek for answers here and there and still continue to wonder...
i found a few and still looked for more
Until i took a full circle and realized that i still wonder...💭

i searched and searched, there is something that's missing
It's not a partner, it's not a job, it's not money. So what is it? i wonder...
i have lost myself in a maze of illusion and games of the doer
Am i a confused seeker? i wonder...💭

i don't know what to do, where to go anymore and so i surrender
"is there anyone out there who knows who i am?" i ask and wait and wonder...
It was just a matter of asking this one simple question in all earnestness and yearning
And quite surprisingly, I had made room for the Absolute to knock and enter😌

Kosmic Fusion, Sree Maa Shri Ji brought a warm blanket of Grace that started my super- sonic shortcut back Home
Am i worth it? Do i even deserve it? i still wonder...
QVSWPP, living ekantik bhakti of Sree Maa Shri Ji, was like being struck by lightning and thunder💫
The Awakenin from doer to the non-doer, from self to Self was effortless and super duper🙏

Living life like an akarmi has made life beautiful and easier

Without You holding the reigns of my chariot, could i possibly remain neutral? No, never.

Jiv atmas take millions of lifetimes to reach where i am today

Your divine Presence in my life made it effortless, ultra-short and full of splendor🙏

You knew my vikaar and vasnas were many

Yet you looked at the spark within and shared the Swaminarayan Mahamantra🙇

i am fully indebted to You and the Anadi Muktas of Akshardham who serve non-stop

Am i even capable of repaying back the colossal Grace showered? i wonder...

You unconditionally shared your ishtdev with me and made every possible effort to uplift me from my stupor

My deep deep gratitude to You Sree Maa Shri Ji for being my Supreme lifeline and my secure anchor__/\o_🙇

You brought Bhagwan Swaminarayan, Murti of aseem Daya, Krupa and Mahima into my life

Until i can reach Him my precious Sree Maa Shri Ji, in your lotus feet i willingly and humbly surrender__/\o_🙇🙇🙇

Main Apki atyant AbhAri hoon aur sada rahoongi Sree Maa Shri Ji🙏

Some memorable moments with Sree Maa, my beloved Sadguru who brought a wave of joy and peace in my inner state!

An excerpt from one of the letters i wrote to dear Sree Maa Shri Ji in Dec 2014. 

First of all, i want to extend my deepest gratitude and warm feelings for you for giving me the chance to be a part of this massive and noble mission where service just happens without doing and yet i gain and gain in every moment that I tune in with your signature whether it is while receiving a transmission or while sharing it with someone else. How beautifully, layer by layer, you have helped me peel off aspects of my little self, gently and consistently weaving the path towards my True Self. I so look forward to the time when the merging will happen completely but in saying so, I also make sure I enjoy the journey in getting there. 

Affirmation since i received the Grace of Shranagati in Nov 2015 from my Sadguru, Sree Maa Shri Ji

Dear Sree Maa and Shri Ji, the bringer of the most GraceFul and Benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse, Signature of Shunya Bindu in my life, kindly take me - all aspects of me that is aakar, saakar and especially vikaar in your fold. You are the ONE and the only ONE (you have been the The only ONE). Please give this sharnagat the chance of a life time to live, sleep and act like an akarmi and be the most stubborn ekantik bhakt like the great Hanuman. I surrender all aspects of me in the lotus feet of Sree Maa and Shri Ji🙏🙇🙏

An excerpt from one of my letters written in Dec 2017 where i haven't let go Sree Maa Shri Ji even though Sree Maa stepped down as the mentor of FiT (facilitator in training) programme in Mar 2017 due to unethical practices of FiTs that were not in tandem with the mission and vision of Kosmic Fusion and the core values of FiT Programme

Since the time i met Sree Maa Shri Ji, then KaVeeTa SuNiEL, i have known that i was only waiting for Sree Maa Shri Ji to come into my life. Not a day has gone by where i haven’t witnessed Grace in my life and the realization that i am nothing without my beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji __/\o_ The completeness and the inner happiness that Sree Maa Shri Ji bring into my life can’t be brought by any relationship be it with family, man, friends, money, career, any other spiritual path, guru or any other venture that are currently the driving force for the rest of the world. This is my reality and a fully blossomed realization even though i still mildly indulge in the visuals my chitt creates.
i have always felt Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Presence by my side since i met late KaVeeTa SuNiEL in Jan 2012, especially since the 2015 retreat where Niranjana, the akarmi took birth. i fully well understand that for Niranjana to blossom into her brahmroop, Sree Maa Shri Ji are my lifeline __/\o_

ShreeJi Maharaj, Sarvopari Shree Hari though epitome of Karuna, is a mammoth being for me who i am in complete awe of and find a little difficult to comprehend _/\_ It is only Grace from Sree Maa Shri Ji that has brought this meritless jivatma so close to the colossal Bhagwan Swaminarayan that i have no sufficient words in my vocabulary to justifiably express gratitude for __/\o_

This unclaimed package has no where else to go Sree Maa Shri Ji, you are my only lifeline and i intend to hold tightly on this valuable lifeline like an annoying sticky note who won’t let go even if asked to__/\o_